Terrors of the Night

So, last night Dannika was having nightmares. Up until about 1:00 am this morning she kept yelling for me, saying she was hearing scary sounds and, all of a sudden a fear of the dark, even though she has a night light. After placating her multiple times she ended up getting into bed with me at midnight while I was reading. After she fell asleep and chris came to bed, he carried her back into her room.

At around 5am she came into our room and climbed into bed with us and of course by that time I had alex in bed with me while I was breast feeding. So poor alex and I were scooted to the edge of the bed while Chris and Danni took up most of the bed.

I do not know how to better deal with Dannikas night mares. Most nights, just putting on the front of scary-shadows-scarer works with her and she goes back to sleep. But every once in awhile she has these long nights of battling something that's not there. I hate it and I don't know what else to do about it. I hate not getting any sleep and I hate dannika being so scared that she's shaking from head to toe. But it seems like all I can do is try to make her feel more comfortable in her room. maybe we can just get her a brighter light for her room? I don't know, maybe a table lamp for her dresser, that would be bright for her and not keep it too bright.

Ugh, who knows. But I really hate this hapening with her but I think it's normal and I hope she will over come this problem of hers.

The healing process

Well, today is day three post surgery. I'm healing up well I think. The pain isn't too awful but being hit doesn't feel too good lol. I hopefully will be off the pain meds tomorrow if i can stand the sting without them. I would like to go back to breastfeeding Alex again. I really miss it.

I stopped since I'm on percocet and it's not 100% safe for him while I am on it. I rather be safe than sorry of course.

I feel bad about slacking on my wife duties though. Thankfully Chris is being very understanding and not complaining about his dwindling sock supply or the dirty laundry pile in the laundry room. He has been very sweet lately, pretty out of the normal but appreciated. I did one load of laundry today though, after Chris carried the basket into the laundry room for me. I hope to take the last pain pill tomorrow and get the laundry all done while it lasts.

And for some reason my throat decided to swell and become sore since last night. I don't know if it's from the breathing tube or from maybe getting sick, but it hurts nonetheless.

Today Dannika has been pushing the limits with everyone here. She even made my father mad, which I haven't really seen before with her. She didn't like it much but hopefully she learns that her attitude is not ok and she can't just stomp around because she doesn't like being told what to do. I am told she is just like me when I was a child, which doesn't surprise me. I just hope she gets over her problem sooner rather than later. it's pretty frustrating.

First Post, yay Me

So, this is my new blog. i will be posting to it whenever something happens with me or the kiddos that I think might be interesting or post-worthy. I have two kids: My first is Dannika, and she will be four in the end of November. My newest addition is our son, Alexander. He is now 2 1/2 months old and a delight most of the time. I am making this blog so I can have somewhere to put down all my thoughts of agony, hilarity, love and boredom that I will be going through as a mother of two. I will post pictures, tell tales and make random comments on some things I will find about mothering.

So, first story I have to share:
My tubal ligation. I was supposed to have a spinal procedure, so i would be heavily drugged but awake during the surgery. But then they found out they couldn't do it that way with what i was having done so i was put all the way under. I didn't find this out until they wheeled me into the freezing cold operation room. the room was filled with students, nurses and three doctors. It was frightening to see random tools and shiny silver bowls like you see on TV but they were right. I was awake one minute, scooting on the middle of the table like they asked and then the next minute I was talking to the recovery nurse and asking her if she took my pony tail out of my hair because my hair was down. She went on to tell me that I did it myself after I first woke up and I couldn't help but laugh because I couldn't remember one thing. They didn't even have me do that counting to 100 thing.

So now, I am home, recovering from the surgery. I have left over gas bubbles in my body from the tubal so I spend most of my day trying not to breathe too deeply and moving slowly. thankfully my mom and husband are taking care of the kids for me. I can make bottles for Alex when he's hungry but that's about it. I cannot breastfeed him while I am on my medication so now he is formula fed for the next few days. But I am continuing to pump to keep my breast milk up.

So about my kiddies:

*Alex is growing fast, my little chunky monkey I call him. He's close to 11 pounds now and wearing 3 month clothing mostly. He has lighter hair for now, more like mine than Chris's dark brown that Dannika got. His eyes are blue, like mine also but everything else yells CHRIS. His ears point a little bit while they stick out just like his. I think it looks really cute :)

*Dannika is almost 4 years old, stubborn and has brown hair and bright blue eyes like crystal water. The first thing people say about her is how pretty her eyes are. I would agree, I love her eyes and am slightly envious ha ha. The next big event for us will be her birthday, which i am looking forward to. It will be just my parents and us but will still be fun I think.